Flashback'ing Sekolah Menengah Part 2 💁🏻‍♀️

Hey guys! Banyak mintak maaf oh dua hari ni busy sangat. Cerita semalam bawak ex-club advisor wa celebrate her birthday. Memang I spent kaw kaw hahahaha and lots of suprises. I think i made her day cause she texted me jn said, she's lucky to have me in her life hahahaha. Kan i dah cakap, my love is great for those who care for me and always support me. I love celebrating!

Lepas balik tu, my ex-club advisor said "hopefully dapat pakwe macam julieen". Me be like Alamak hahaha hopefully tapi julieen perempuan ms ayo but I love celebrating people who loves me and care for me. Amen!! Hopefully my club advisor cepat kawin sebelum wa! Wa pun dah 25 year old this year semakin hari semakin seram bila saudara dah mula tanya parents wa and parents pun dah tanya wa ade boypren ke x ni. Let's just hope for the best for my future keke. 

Tapi kan lepas balik tu, memang penat teruk a sampai wa tido mati. Maybe banyak rayau kat Ampang point the most kot. Now Ampang point banyak changes la. Ampang point was my fav place time kecik sampai SPM. That place has a lot of childhood memories yar. I love Ampang point!

Hari ni pulak bangun pagi je terus sakit bahagian shoulder wa, rasanya wa salah tido la ni adui. Lepas my first younger sis urut guna yoko yoko rasa okay la sikit tapi boleh feel feverish. Haihh but xpe la, wa cuti now bleh rehat kat rumah. Harapla esok x demam. Should be fine. 

Okay dah ignore yang itu so here I am again back to the story for part 2. 

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Dia letak guitar dia and jalan ke arah wa, and tanya "Eh sorang ke?"

Me: Aah biasalah baru join mesti kawan lambat nak dapat.

Him: Em so why don't you join us?

Me: Erm, me? No it's fine. I am good.

Him: btw you suka music ke?

Me: Siapa je yang x suka hahaha mesti la.

Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Blaaa

Begitu la conversation but I x ingat sangat apa yang wa cakap lepas tu but I ade cakap more dialogs sampai dia, lelaki itu introduce wa kat kawan² dia dalam kelas tu. So basically that time, we jadi one gang a. Uni friends. Gituuuu ceritanya. 

So kiteorg gang rapat selalu makan together time class break, duduk dalam kelas together, bincang assignments semua satu team, time sat sun pi cafe main guitar spent time dengan gang, etc etc so basically we enjoying our diploma journey. I x berapa ingat but I ingat I ade bagitau empat scene ni, first, the time I akan jumpa dia for the first time and another three, wa cerita sekarang. 

So, as year goes, lepas dah lama kenal tu, there is one time ade event band so dorang ni involve so basically tuk support gang dengan lelaki itu, I ikut sekali. Tapi dorang itu kena buat rehearsal so memang lelaki itu dengan gang dia practice most time, wa selalu pi studio dorang (dorang ade studio sendiri btw) and support dorang, dengar lagu and record video. Itu kerja wa. That time, lepas last day rehearsal itu haaaaa here it comes.... Last day rehearsal tu before the event, consider esok la event tu. Time balik, Semua tengah kemas barang naik balik. Then, sorang member cakap lapar bab focus practice dari pagi so semua x makan lagi, jadi tiga orang member turun bawah kata nak beli burger tuk semua so tinggal I, lelaki itu dengan sorang lagi kawan so, sorang lagi member tengah kemas barang kat belakang meanwhile dia, lelaki bakal pakwe tu kemas guitar dia, masukkan barang² dalam beg. Then I datang ke arah dia and said "Best ah lagu korang, confirm you guys boleh perform well malam event nanti" then he looked at me and smiled then dia tiber tanya "Nak try main guitar x?" And, I pon excitedly cakap "Em jom". Then dia keluarkan balik guitar dia duduk exactly macam tangga kat depan pentas kecik kat studio tu. X de la pentas tu besar, kecik je. Then, I duduk em em how to say. Okay so basically, 

I x duduk kat atas riba dia tapi duduk punggung sentuh lantai tapi bersandar pada dada dia. Dia pegang gitar kat hadapan I, (I duduk rapat dengan dada dia ha gitu) consider guitar tu kat atas kaki i. Then our fingers bergerak together kat string gitar time dia mengajar guna each string kat guitar. Ha gitu. Boleh picture x? 

So, time tu la i akan suka dia and dia akan jatuh cinta dengan wa bab jari kiteorg tersentuh and I sandar kat dada dia for the first time. (I sensitive touch btw, dulu memang x suka friendly sentuh lelaki, banyakkan maintain jarak unless wa suka dia la sheesh) Then lepas habis lagu main guitar, I pandang dia sambil senyum and dia pandang i, muka kiteorg like dekat sangat la that pandang tu ye la imagine i sandar kat dada dia, belakang i. Haaa, time tu, tanpa sedar, we will had our first kiss! 

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Ngl, satu kelas jerit that time. I remember kawan gang i dalam kelas pegang telinga jerit jerit hahahahaha memories ah weh. Rindu my school friends. Nasib kayalan je bab I dulu suka tulis novel now x minat sangat dah so benda camni memang wa tulis ah dulu. Kekeke jadi begitu la cerita i akan ade pakwe that time hahaha. Back to the story, That time kawan sorang lagi kat studio tu ternampak kite berdua tapi x ganggu terus keluar dari studio tu kejap tunggu member lain balik beli burger. Lepas member semua datang itu, gang akan nampak kita berdua pegang tangan borak². That time baru gang tahu yang kite berdua ni dah couple sekian hahaha. 

Haihh I wish this really happened in my life waduhhh tapi kayalan jerr. 😭

Yang lagi dua benda i cerita tu i x ingat sangat ah but I make it short la bab ingat sikit sikit je. 

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Event band haa tu another scene i cerita. Event tu event malam. Kiteorg geng naik MRT pastu terus kat tempat event tu. Tapi seriously x ingat ah apa I cerita. Yang I ingat kiteorg kat event tu, I bagi kata² semangat kat pakwe i consider lelaki tu la and geng then that's all kot. Aduh x ingat la. Haaa tapi lepas event tu I ade peluk pakwe. Itu je kot. X ingat ah. Tape esok I cuba text my old friends tanya dorang kalo la dorang ingat apa yang I cerita. I yang cerita pun lupa apatah lagi dorang pfttt...

Lagi satu scene ni I ingat tapi x berapa clear jugak la. Last scene ni. Lelaki itu consider dah jadi pakwe la that time katanya nk balik kampong. Dia sorang je among gang yang balik kampung family bawak, member lain kat KL je. So I tengah sedih pegang tangan dia for the last time sebelum dia balik kampong dengan parents dia, family dia. Oh ya ya, I lupa, that time phone kitaorang blueberry and Nokia hahahahahahahhaha so text semua normal message guna topup hotlink, konon la xdek WhatsApp 🤣 that's why sedih bab sudah nak VC, susah nk cepat text macam WhatsApp bisalah zaman dulu I sekolah menengah. Jadi, time last day tu, dia janji yang dia akan datang balik kat i lepas balik KL bab dia balik kampong for 6 months x silap tu yg i cakap. (Entahla buat apa kat kampong tu haihh) so, dia bagi I satu keychain lambang cinta kitorang. Lepas dia balik kampong tu, rindu je la kita berdua and text kat phone, tu je. 

Lepas berbulan tu, dia balik KL. The first thing dia jumpa tu I and tempat kiteorg jumpa tu kat park. Lepas dia sampai tu, dia tunggu and I datang lambat sikit. Lepas masuk dalam Park and nampak dia kat atas bridge konon la ade bridge kat Park then I lari ke arah dia and peluk kuat. Then sama² lepaskan rindu. 

The end.

Overall, satu bende je wa x paham from what I cerita ni. 6 bulan dia kat kampung buat apa? I mean baru terfikir ye la kiteorg kan belajar diploma, mana ade sem break sampai 6 bulan adui. Bodoh a pemikiran wa that time. Poteng satu sem kot hahahaha. 

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So, Itu je la I ingat. Seriously I x berapa ingat sangat tapi ingat la sikit². Apa yang I tulis kat sini ni la yg wa ingat. Tu semua kayalan je ye la that time memang I ade banyak goals, dreams, plans kat otak. Tapi benda ni semua kayalan, reality wa pi tempat lain tapi banyak benda berlaku la sampai I jadi trauma disebabkan cinta, failures in my diploma, heart broken, family issues bagai. Now wa dah lain. I x nak pikir apa yang berlaku kat I dulu. Benda da jadi kan nak buat cam mana. At the end, I yang terseksa. Xpe la. I x nak pikir da. Lepas SPM, tu I actually x sabar nak ade pakwe jugak bab percaya dengan cerita sendiri tapi x sangka I pi ke arah memusnahkan diri I sendiri but thank god, x worse and I am good now. The only thing I can said overall experience, hebat betul cinta I time diploma dulu kat seorang lelaki yang x pernah cintakan i tapi bencikan I. Kejam yet its okay. Julieen strong enough now.

Dah dah daaaaaahh x nak cerita. So itu la I cerita kat satu kelas. I rasa I cerita almost 1 hour je kot bab lepas cerita tu, I main UNO dengan gang wa dalam kelas. It was a good memory yar. Now kawan² I dah kahwin da, I sorang and sorang lagi tengah still single kejar career. Kiteorg masih muda lagi konon la pikir dalam hati. Semoga the love life after this will give me a new happiness and thousands love. All i want, my expectations the man i am going to marry is, i nk family dia besar. I love spending time more with families rather than friends. Memang la friends pun the best, I like spending with friends also but i also want a big family walaupon family i jugak besar ptfff. His family, brothers, sisters, his parents, grandma, uncle, aunt, etc etc. I x kisah lelaki i nak khawin ni gemuk ke, jari extra lebih ke, ade jangut ke or whatever, i seriously x kisah as long i fell for him and just watch me. His birthday at home inviting his families bagai, our anniversaries, suprises, festivals etc etc, i am just too much excited for it. I wanna make my man live like a king with me. Honestly I memang pro dalam hal romantic hahaha x tahu la what's awaits me but May God bring blessings and lots of happiness after this, I dah cukup terseksa and menangis. I deserve more and I love myself a lot, damn lot rn! ❤️‍🩹

Ngl but just keep in secret la to those yang baca blogspot wa, I sekarang jaga badan wa pun bab nk became a perfect woman to my man nanti hahaha one of my goals jugak at the same time, wa suka changes in my body now. And, one of my dream that I wanna do in future is, time his birthday imma not only going to celebrate him but also his both parents for bringing him into this world to be mine. Hahaha (*laughing) I just have too many dreams, aims and goals in my life rn kakaka but I won't just said it, I will do it and prove it!!

Haihh may I grow more healthy and pretty after this hoho! 

Itu sahaja. Thank guys for reading. Maaf kalo ade salah kata or if i ade tulis something bad ke kat sini. I pun manusia biasa jugak!

Byezzz and Goodnight. Wa nak rehat now. Rasa better lepas tulis kat sini.🦇